my bestfriend is moving. i dont really know what is going through my mind right now.. i’ve known now for awhile she was going to, but i havent really cried. which is werid, i would think i would be balwing my eyes out. i don’t think it will hit me until she’s gone, and she leaves monday. the same thing happend to me when my brother moved to Kansas. i think its odd i dont cry…and then the after shock hits me. whenever i do think about it, i get all upset, but never really cry. in a way, i understand why she’s leaving, but i feel almost as if im being abandond, first my brother and now her. i know God will pull me through it, and i know he’s here. it just doesn’t feel that way right now. Where i live, i feel i dont belong because everyone around me is so consumed with materialistic things that i could careless about. i want to be in a place where other people value the same things as me, and i feel accepted. God has helped me tramindously already with everything and im so thankful, but it still doesnt seem enough. i know it’s probably because i dont put in as much as i need to in God’s and my relationship. anyway, please keep me and my family in your prayers, as this will be a very rough time for us.